workout log

Squats
5x70kg
4x5x75kg

first time i did squats outside a squat rack hahaha.so scary

dynamic rows
8x30kg
8x35kg
8x40kg

dips
25,20,20

did some pullup variations in the morning before work

i want to gym.
i watched manic street preachers yesterday
i think a bird pooped on me while i was watching
i just came back from a staff outing,any thoughts and comments and demands of further explainations/elaborations can be asked from me. good night

01) Bold what is true about you.
02) Underline what is half true.(I'll just turn it red)
03) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
04) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
05) Tag five LJ friends.
06) Ask me anything about the bold/italicized/underlined

• I miss somebody right now.
• I don't watch much TV these days.
• I own lots of books.
• I wear glasses or contact lenses.
• I love to play video games. (I used to. Now i only play when there are people playing as well. Now i’m pretty ambivient about them)
• I've tried marijuana.
• I've watched porn movies.
• I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
• I believe honesty is usually always the best policy. (I won’t lie to you but i’m not dumb)
• I curse sometimes.
• I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
• I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (For a couple of weeks a long ago)
• I have broken someone's bones.
• I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
.• I hate the rain. (i love rain!)
• I'm paranoid at times.
• I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
• I need/want money right now.
• I love sushi.
• I talk really, really fast.
• I have fresh breath in the morning.
• I have long hair. (Had)
• I have lost money in Las Vegas. (Going to in 2 weeks time!HAHAH)
• I have at least one sibling
.• I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
• I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
• I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
• I like the way that I look.
• I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
• I am usually pessimistic.
• I have a lot of mood swings.
• I think prostitution should be legalized.
• I slept with a roommate.
• I have a hidden talent. (I can’t think of anything talents that i know of right now ahaha)
• I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
• I have a lot of friends.
• I have kissed someone of the same sex.
• I enjoy talking on the phone. (I hate this actually)
• I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
• I love to shop and/or window shop.
• I'm obsessed with my Livejournal.
• I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. (I thought hard about this)
• I'm a pretty good dancer. I think so anyways.
• I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (nope)
• I have a cell phone.
• I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.(But i get drunk very easily, embrassingly)
• I've rejected someone before.
• I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
• I want to have children in the future.
• I have changed a diaper before.
• I have a lot to learn. We can all learn a lot more.
• I am shy around the opposite sex.
• I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
• I have at least 5 away messages saved
.• I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
• I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (i am quite gutless when it comes to girls haha)
• I own the "South Park" movie.
• I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Livejournal. (Facebook and msn hahaah)
• I enjoy some country music. (Johnny cash and kd lang)
• I would die for my best friend(s).
• I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
• I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
• Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
• I have dated a close friend's ex.
• I am happy at this moment.
• I’m obsessed with guys. (Girls)
• Democrat.
• Conservative Republican.
• I am punk rockish.
• I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
• I study for tests most of the time.
• I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
• I can work on a car.
• I love my job.
• I am comfortable with who I am right now.
• I have more than just my ears pierced.
• I walk barefoot wherever I can.(I'M NERCO BUTCHER)
• I have jumped off a bridge.
• I love sea turtles.
• I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
• I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
• I am proficient on a musical instrument. (I play piano!)
• I hate office jobs.
• I went to college out of state.
• I am adopted.
• I am a pyro.
• I have thrown up from crying too much.
• I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (who has’nt?)
• I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
• I adore bright colors.
• I usually like covers better than originals.
• I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGI Fridays. (What the hell is this)
• I can pick up things with my toes.
• I can't whistle.
• I have ridden/owned a horse.
• I still have every journal I've ever written in.
• I talk in my sleep.
• I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
• I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
• I wear a toe ring.
• I have a tattoo.
• I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
• I am a caffeine junkie.
• I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
• If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
• I've cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
• I have been to over 15 conventions.
• I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
• I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
• I'm an artist.
• I am ambidextrous.
• I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
• If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
• I have terrible teeth.
• I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
• I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
• I have lived in either three different states or countries.
• I am extremely flexible.
• I want to own my own business.
• I smoke
• I spend way too much time on the computer.
• Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
• Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
• I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
• I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
• I don't like it when people are displeased or seem displeased with me.
• I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.(All of my life during poly)
• I have played strip poker with someone else before.
• I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
• I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
• I can't stand being alone.
• I have at least one obsession at any given time.
• I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
• I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
• I'm a judgmental asshole.
• I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
• I have traveled on more than one continent.
• I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
• I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
• I can speak more than one language.
• I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
• I would rather read than watch TV
• I like reading fact more than fiction.
• I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.(And failed the report!)
• I like most animals better than most people.
• I own a collection of retro games consoles.
• The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. (shiver with joy lol)
• I have hit someone with a dead fish.
• I have written/read erotic stories.
• I am compulsively honest.
• I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
• I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
• I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
• I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
• I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
• I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
• I dislike milk. (I LOVE MILK)
• I obsessively wash my hands.
• I always carry that something significant around with me.
• Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
• I love talking about myself to the point where I need to be stopped.
• I often sing whenever I can and I'm good at it too.
• I have experienced some type of traumatic abuse in my lifetime.
• I've experienced visions and dreams which I know/believe are from my past life.• I have deja vu so vivid that I feel faint.
• I love Harry Potter.
• My parents are not together.
• I don't believe in love.
• I hate people who walk incredibly slow.
• I have extreme contempt for the vast majority of people.
• Sometimes I don't shower before work.
• To me, procrastination is like a disease!
• I want to sleep now
I enjoy watching two guys kissing each other.
• I am a typical Gemini born.
• The more I searched the less I've found.
• As a child I was a huge crybaby.
• I'm feeling alone very fast.
• I'm living in a fairytale and I'm the noble Princess, who saves the day!
• I always have to spell my name.
• I want to die in my sleep.
• I have a strange laugh.
• If they let me, I can sleep 12 hours in a row.
• I wish I could transform myself into a boy every now and then.
• I dance in the rain and don't feel like a fool.haven't been caught in the rain for a very long time.i miss that
• I have a favorite stuffed animal that I will not ever get rid of.
• I sing 80's hair metal songs into my hairbrush on a daily basis.
• I have a speech disorder.
• I'm infatuably attracted to men with long, blond, curly hair
• I sometimes have the urge to take a shot of whiskey or open a can of beer at odd times in the day.
• I have a weakness for guys with nice bodies (girls with nice bodies but honestly i rather prefer a non atheletic looking girl to a skinny girl who works out alot)
• I plan to move to another country at some point in my life.
• I ever wanted to be a certain fictional character
• My dreams are so vivid, they feel real.
• I'm a huge geek, the comic-book and video game kind, not the smart kind.
• I can get jealous easily!
• My computer and hard drive are pretty much my most prized possessions.
• I prefer to buy CDs than download music, free or otherwise.
• I haven't had my first kiss yet.
• I currently struggle/have struggled in the past with an eating disorder.
• I've been told I am too nice for my own good.
• Eating is my passion in life.
• I'll always have a crush on a certain someone.
• I love surprising people

tag everyone who has a blog!
if you want me to list out
vicky
nicole
timothy
mark
ben kok
lydia
chris

my mom just told me the best line ever.
'shows me great eastern brochure'
'life is great,keep it straight'

Workout log with 50% more prefab sprout!

Back squats
5x5x 75kg

Dynamic rows
3x10x 20kg
2x8x 30kg

Shit workout today,i knew i was in trouble when 75kg felt way too heavy than it should have been.

Wanted to continue on with my workout but needed to get back home. It seems after my dates with the russian squat program,my squats haven't improved yet.sigh.and my back squats feel so strange suddenly. But i'll be back on friday doing my squats and 5x5:D that's how winning is done,with perserverance.

Had a pretty damn lewd job offered to me today.DAMMIT and i didn't expect that is all i'll say

had a new supervisor come today,my colleagues are pretty antisocial to him,not talking to him but i find he's a nice guy.But something he said struck me today.
We were looking at the income the company made during the week and he said the parties brought in twelve thousand alone so we ought to be grateful that the parties were paying for our salary.

i've not heard alot of encouragement or positive statements made by the colleagues around me and from myself as well.Not about how to help the company but more of 'how much time left before i go home' and 'shit there are alot of plates to clean' I do admit that i feel good when i finish work but where is my sense of pride in my work?

It's hard to want to do something with pride when there are more than 5 customers waiting for their orders to be taken and it's crunch time but something needs to be changed and done



Anyway some prefab sprout for you guys.
Will heaven wait,all heavenly,over the next horizon?

2 years ago,if you were to have talked to me on msn,I would have been waiting in front of the computer for every word you said.But I have to get on with life now

First gymnastics class today! FUN FUN FUN
Did some round offs, which btw are not like cartwheels in which you just throw yourself into the movement.It's like from standing into handstand where you end up 180 degrees from where you were. THEN WE WENT TO THE TRAMPOLINE WOO. I can clear a lorry easily with that height.Only complains were that an hour was too short,warmups were too long and the people there stuck to their own groups lol

There were 5 other guys there.2 older angmoh ladies,3 people my age,1 girl from mgs(juiliana) and 1 guy from hwachong(samuel) and 1 other guy(En ting?Rui en?Can't rememeber the name). The three teenagers are quite good friends cause i saw them leaving in a car together

I wanna do a shooting star press soon!
Work tmr so later loves



Manic Street Preachers! I've only hear 3 of their songs but I'm going for the concert :D

johnny cash

Well, you're my friend
And can you see

(I've had a couple of journals and a common recurring theme thats been coming up is that people don't understand what i'm typing about. And I have been doing that,being all cryptic and mournful. I guess the blog is for me as much as it is for you the viewer, cause i write to remember)

Many times we've been out drinking
Many times we've shared our thoughts
But did you ever, ever notice, the kind of thoughts I got

(hung out with big hands band after service,they are CRAZZZZYYYYYY BOY.Hahaha was kinda stun for the first 5 mins but i really enjoy their enthusiasm.You know,I wonder if people were who they are,maybe we would enjoy each other better.Then we wouldn't have to reply on wine and social lubricants for doing a simple action,conversation.)

Well you know I have a love, for everyone I know
And you know I have a drive, to live I won't let go
But can you see this opposition, comes rising up sometimes
That is dread full imposition, comes blacking in my mind

(went to timo's house again after church,we were supposed to play soccer but it rained.like a bitch.a big black dog.or an irritatable woman.timo was like half dead after guard duty ahahaha.i know what timothy does when he is bored,he logs onto motorcycle websites :D.then gym and family dinner at melben)

And then I see a darkness
And then I see a darkness
And then I see a darkness
And then I see a darkness
Did you know how much I love you
There's a hope that somehow you
Can save me from this darkness

Well I hope that someday buddy
We'll have peace in our lives
Together or apart
Alone or with our wives
And we can stop our whoring
And pull the smiles inside
And light it up forever
And never go to sleep
My best unbeaten brother
This isn't all I see

Oh no, I see your darkness
Oh no, I see your darkness
Oh no, I see your darkness
Oh no, I see your darkness
Did you know how much I love you
There's a hope that somehow you
You'll save me from this darkness

I really like this song,johnny cash really gives a very sorrowful mourning songs to the songs he does.He makes the covers into his songs.And on that note, I hope i didn't sing too loud today. lol