Fabled angst machine

Can i sing a song for you?
Or maybe do a trick or two?
Would you be afraid?
Stay a while, you make me smile
Don't leave me here without someone
Would you be afraid?
Take out the fabled angst machine, and let me in
Under the circumstances man, I'm not so keen
Can I sing a song for you?
Or maybe do a trick or two?
Would you be the same?
Stay a while, you make me smile
Don't leave me here without someone
Would you be the same?

Today was a good day!

WELL. Summary of today i had a really good day, went down to SMa to pay for my school fees.lol i went down to bugis in my morning clothes and unbrushed teeth and unwashed hair.

Starting school soon. I really have to work hard. my last 2 mods didn't turn out as well as i liked it to be.Sigh.And it's mass comm modules,things that i'm majoring in.

After that, came back and had lunch alone at market. It was a beautiful afternoon.Hot,clear skies,brightest bluest sky i'd ever seen before. Walked around cause i didn't want to waste the afternoon and went for a garage sale. bought 4 glasses,2 books and a VERY NICE BAG!
I wanted to buy a vase but the owner broke it.ARGH

I'm a complete sucker for beautiful things,especially glass.

Then timothy called me down to Plaza singapore for a workshop by a bassist. WAH the bassist name was wendy phua. SHE IS HOT AND SHE CAN PLAY DAMN GOOD MUSIC HAHAHAHA

I like very much.hahah.
This post is very point form as i'm going out to club soon and i'm late to meet my guys.
It's been a great day and it looks like it's gonna be a good night.
:#

workout log 11-6-09

squats
5x75kg
5x80kg
2x5x90kg
3x3x102.5kg
8x90kg

Monkeying around power rack

workout log 29-11-09

squats
80kgx5
80kgx5
90kgx5
90kgx5
102.5kgx4

Press
40kgx5x4

Rollout from feet into static plank
6x pause as long as i can

Screwing around in the squat rack lol

Things that happened this week.
-COMMERIAL LAW
WHAT IS AN OFFER? WHAT IS A CONTRACT? ANS:CONTRADICTIONS MADE INTO ENGLISH
TOM IS A MANAGER.TOM HIRED PATTY TO WORK FOR HIM.UNFORTUNATELY TOM HAS NO LEGAL POWER TO HIRE PEOPLE.TOM REFUSES TO PAY PATTY
HOW WOULD YOU ADVISE PATTY? ANS:WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE IF YOU COULD BE HIRED.
GOD I HOPE I DON'T FAIL.

-Clubbing
We pangsehed one guy hahahah.Oh and i love house.the beat is super great. I didn't know they had salsa dancers,those in fishnets and peacock feathers during house nights at zouk.Should have gotten a kiss from them hahahahhahahaha.Their lipstick is like permanent mark thick

-Accidentally cancelling my test practical date.
Wah majorly pissed off. And the person in the SSDC REFUSING TO HELP ME. I wanted to throw him out of the window.FLAT OUT REFUSE.NO SYMPATHY AT ALL. Maybe if i was a girl with a low cut dress,then he would have made some form of eye contact.

-Intro to mass comm
Lecturer is good.Very slack guy lol.I like the way he praises the class in his snide way hahah. He says things like "I appreciate that comment" "very good development of that idea" in a very monotonous voice.lolol.Oh and he's from nus political science. future career possiblity for you alex? hahaha

ok off the studying

motel hotel holiday inn

workout log 20-11-09
squats
70kgx5
80kgx5
90kgx5
90kgx5
105kgx4 (WAH SIAN)

gymnastic stuff? can't remember lol

workout log 21-11-09
swinging dips
20sec x 5 reps

tucked v sit
4x3

front tuck lever->straight body forward->straight body back->straddle back lever->pull through
3 sets 2 mins rest each

workout log 22-11-09
front squats
6x3x80kg

press
5x3x40kg

pullups
3x10

korean dips
2x10

human flags
4x2

beginner tick tock
2x4

I know some people are quite put off by this(hahah mandayyyyyy) but yea :D this is me and what i do. I'll blog about my day proper later!

8-11-09 workout log

squats
5x70
5x80
5x90
5x90
2x102.5 (failed at third rep)(Lost my concentration!)
8x90kg

press
5x3x40

played football with friends

30-10-09

Squats
70x5
80x5
95x5
90x5
105x1 (failed 2nd rep)
105x0
90x8


Front squat
80x1
80x1
80x1
80x1

Superset
Front tuck lever
5x3

i went driving today. My instructor was the old guy, can't rememember his name, ng something. I learnt parallel parking and revised my driving. 4 more lessons then exam.
Funny,the first few time i met him,i really hated the guy. Really bloody naggy and damn rude. But i got along with him the next few times. :) He's a nice guy. Can't remember how we managed to get along tho. I wish i remembered. It's these things that are really important. Cause we made the connection and i forgot how we made it work.

Then mahjong at timos house and off i went to meet my mom. :)
We walked around amk hub and she bought some shirts and pants. :)
We had a really really good time although we did nothing but talk about how that shirt doesn't look nice on my mom and walk around ntuc. well at least i did.

some pictures of my aunt and her bf in new caldonia




the guy is called caustad and the bitch is called dora

workout log 17-10

squats
70kg x 5
80kg x 5
100kg x 5
100kg x 5
100kg x ? (failed on the 3 or 4th rep)
90kg x 5

Press
40 x 4 x 4

gymnastic work

i'm just gonna list out somethings i remember about this week
-a guy holding his gf bandaged hand
-class this week
-The girl waiting for her boyfriend in the dark
-The 3 kids under the light post

workout 9-10-09

very rushed today,went came 630? had to leave at 740

squats
60kg x 5
80kg x 5
100kg x 5
90kg x 5
100kg x 3 failed 4 rep

lololol teck bun is my saviour otherwise i'd kena crush under the weight

military press

40kg x 6 x 3

I haven't really written anything in this blog that vaguely resembles anything like what my life has been like. People usually blog about their days, what they felt, the experiences that they've been through or the bitchy thoughts that goes through their mind. Hhahahah.

I guess the reason why i started this blog is to give people a glimpse into my life.cause i really don't talk about much. it just seems terribly rude and obnoxious to suddenly just blurt out about something that happened to you and then talk about it with your friend.

well it does seem that way to me.haha.

School was good. I wasn't the studious apple polishing(come to think of it,some people clean their apples with spit) class monitor but i paid attention to the lecturer as she taught. i really enjoyed sitting in a class and cramming like hell. I was freaking worried for the exam as we had only 3 lessons and nothing else except for the study guide for assistance. On the day of the exam i really thought i was going to fail because i couldn't regurgitate all the information.Really truly.

I really wish i could phrase it in such a nonsensical way that would make you laugh and understand perfectly what i meant. My friend alex could do in perfectly. she dressed like a preppie/goth/indie/confused manner. but what a ferocious intelligence.

Anyway,school this thurs sat sunday. That means no hot girl on sat and no serangoon garden visit on sun. D:

ok food is digested. time to exercise

workout log

squats
4x95
4x95
3x95 failed on 4rd rep
2x95 failed on 3rd rep
0x95 failed
0x95 failed

Press
3x5x40kg

Gymnastic work
Soccer

workout log

16-09-09
Pullup to one legged front lever (5sec)
6x2

17-09-09
Front squat
1x80kg
2x80kg
2x80kg
1x80kg
3x80kg
2x80kg
1x80kg
3x80kg (last rep failed)

Deadlift
3x3x100kg

Swinging dips
8x5

Human flag negatives

workout log

6-09-09
straddle human flag
4x5
swinging dips
3x10
CANNOT REMEMBER

7-09-09
pullups to single leg front lever (5sec)
2,2,2

20 dips

single leg squats
5x5

8-09-09
Straddle human flag
4x3

Single leg squats
2x10

QDS pushups beginner
2x6

Muscle up practice
2x4

Wall runs
10 mins

Happiness in an email

Dear Students,



Please take note that the bridging class commencing on Thursday (10 Sep 2009) will be held at SMa City Campus. You are registered for Principles of Marketing (PMKTG).



I have appended the room schedule for your kind perusal:


Bridging to BCOM/BMC (10 - 16 September 2009) Room Schedule

Module
Session
Class Date
Class Time
Room Schedule


Principles of Marketing
1
10 Sep (Thu)
7pm – 10pm
SMa #05-03


Principles of Marketing
2
12 Sep (Sat)
9am – 5pm
SMa #05-03


Principles of Marketing
3
13 Sep (Sun)
9am – 5pm
SMa #05-03


Principles of Marketing
Exam
16 Sep (Wed)
7pm- 10pm
TBA




^ please double check plasma TV on the actual day for class room number

workout log 29-08

Front squat
2x80kg
2x80kg
3x80kg
2x80kg
3x80kg

Deadlift
5x1x110kg

Went to the park for some gymnastic work
4 rounds of 5 mounting the bar
3x8 swinging germans

5 tick tocks

Fooling around on the bar

I just realised i can't do basic level 2 gymnastic bar moves. wth i cannot spin myself around the bar

long time no update

Hello again.
workout log 22-8
squats
5x7x80kg

Press
3x3x40kg

Random gymnastic work at playground

You know what i hate? I hate people who become a stereotype,i hate people who become a textbook model of a certain characteristic or personality. get your own sense of personality or sense of right and wrong.
I met this guy at the park, i have no idea what he is doing but he's prancing around waving his arms in the air on a freaking sat afternoon with your fbt shorts placed dangerously low. If you aren't homosexual, i don't know what you are. I really rarely dislike people but he get's on my nerves so damn much. So damn much.
I mean i do stuff in the gym and when i'm working out that make people stare and may seem out of place, but it's for a reason i do it.
Because
A) People don't know what it is and if you'd do some research,you'd find what i'm doing is normal
B) If you want to be better than the rest, you got to start doing things that others won't do due to whatever reasons they have

"I've got a confession to make/i'm your fool"
I'm reading tataric and spg's blogs now. Honestly,they make me feel good. Because they let me know that i'm not the only screwed up person in the whole wide world. Not to say that they are screw up,but more of a sense of...they are people who made mistakes and aren't afraid to show it. They don't know the way to go but by hell they're trying.And they reveal how they feel. Most of us aren't even comfortable with our sexuality. I admire them. Their boldness. I don't approve of their lifestyle but i love their forthrightness.

"I don't know if i'm right or if i'm wrong,but i'll try to see it through the end of the story"

I've spent too much time here again.
Time to read articles

This song is about a girl.

Can't bear for you to go
But I'm just a boy
What do i know
Don't make me say the things I don't wanna say
But you delight in hearing them anyway

So when you look through the screen
Thinking if life's a just dream
Or a song on the radio
I hope you'll realise here
That you'll be welcome here

I saw you with balloons today
Floating in the clouds blown my way
Wish I'd spoken before you left
But you're gone before i could remember my breath

So hope you come back down
Before the rain covers your skin
Before your feet remember the ground

So when you look through the screen
Thinking if life's a just dream
Or a song on the radio
I hope you'll realise here
That you'll be welcome here

So come back down if the fog gets hard to see
from the mountains and apple trees

So when you look through the screen
Thinking if life's a just dream
Or a song on the radio
I hope you'll realise here
That you'll be welcome here

Merrily merrily merrily merrily
life is but a dream

Hello blog,remember me?

hello it's been a while.
*brings flowers to blog*

Life has been good.It's not been perfect,it's not been constant but it's been good.
My NS life is busy like hell most of the times but interesting to say the least.I've learnt abit of the medical field and it's pretty useful :D i can read very basic ecgs and can draw blood and know what does what.<---NS info so it's classified.HAHA. I've heard and read stories of people before they go in NS and let me just say, no matter how screwed up you feel you are,no matter how fucked up your life is, unless you are missing one arm, have a hole in your throat, have contracted aids below the age of 18 or was born with cancer, you are one of the lucky ones.
I meet alot of people also and see alot of guys bodies. Ruggers are just big with a beer gut HAHA. Seasports people are tanned as hell and ALL HAVE ABS.They're like a brown carboncopy of each other HAHA(Bear in mind i was a db once also!So this is very true ). Judokas have the best bodies and you can tell by the way they move. Powerlifters have no abs but have very good body development esp upper back.

Oh btw i saw shaun ng without his shirt so if anyone wants it pls pm me XOXOXOXO

Went climbing with reb,lydia and amanda yesterday.Fun! Chris was not there.hahaha.

FIREFIGHT GIG ON FRIDAY! MY BDAY! I'M GOING ALONE BUT I DON'T CARE! GIG!! CONCERT!!!

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As you get older,the more things you want to do that you wish you did when you were younger. I realise in myself that i want to do alot of things.Sports,make new friends,party,sing,study,help my brother get a B3 in english
But i can't cause i've got more pressing things to do now like study and get a degree. And it is depressing somethings when i'm just sitting at home infront of the com,watching youtube and surfing throuugh websites. That this would it? My life now?
But enough moping.
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Workout log 27-7
Squats
4x70kg
4x75kg
4x90kg
4x90kg
2x90kg
2x90kg

Swinging dips, jumps, pullup work,tick tocks on the day before.

Thinking of learning gymnastics.

Can someone buy for me the building a gymnastic body book! it's on the gymnastic bodies website!!!!!

skanky hair skanky face

workout log
9-7-09
Squats
90kgx4x4
90x1
90x1
90x1
90x1
90x1

Last few singles were done for speed.

Anyhow lift and press
40x2x4

Handstands and wall walk bridges and split legged front levers
Getting stronger at the levers,just quite awkward when there are people infront of you and SPREAD your legs like butter infront of them. lololol

Might be able to do a full front lever at the end of sept.
Holding two rings or bars is easier than holding a single bar i realised.
If straight armed holds are too hard,bend your arms and keep them to the side. keep your body tight

I was going to gardens but it’s raining now. Wanted to walk around,have an ice cream, look about.Maybe sneak into the construction site if I felt like it heehee. But it’s drizzling outside. But it’s not bringing my mood down, cause I love the rain. It’s constant. What ever it touches gets wet.

(I wrote this half an hour later)I lost my train of thought again. Fantastic.

i'm going to walk around gardens!it stopped raining!

i went to the park to workout,pullups and gymnastics skills. i saw a couple sitting in the situp bench,side by side. They were bent over with their heads touching each other like rams.

Like a pair of goats in love.hahah

The girl had long black hair,sway sway shake the life away,hair that enveloped her shoulders. The boy had a guitar. Haha, boy has the guitar,girl has the hair.What a match. They both wore black with jeans.Ridiculous sweet.

They pushed and pulled at each other with their heads.Push and pull.Then broke apart laughing. I wish i could have said that they kissed but didn't happen.


I spoilt the mood hahahahahahahaah

Swinging dips
5x5
Getting stronger!

Skin the cat
3x5

Pullups
7,7,8,8

i'm supposed to be reading through websites to find a course to study for. I told my mom that i'm taking marketing management.And i'm sure of what i want to do and i want i want i want i want to achieve. But i can't concentrate on the words. I keep staring at the lady wearing makeup and the black blouse. That's all.

It was supposed to be from primary to secondary to jc or poly if you couldn't cope with the jc life and then university.

where did it screw up? but i'm asking questions that i know.But i need to say it out so that my ears can hear and understand what my head knows.because my mouth needs to say and my ears need to hear and my mind needs to process and understand what it already knows because it has a way of knowing what to do,but not doing the right thing at all

"Take out the fabled angst machine,and let me in"
"but under these circumstances i'm not so keen"

It's hard.The reason why it's so hard is that i don't have something to oppose,to fight against.Like in primary school it was your psle,sec school it was your o lvls. It's hard.

i'm gonna walk about till i find something to do,someone to talk to,something to breathe,something to smile about,something to cry about,something to talk about,someone everlasting

workout 2-6-09

squats
5x60
5x70
5x80
5x90
4x90

first time i've failed a rep in a LONNNG time.

pullups
10,10,10

swinging dips
4x6

front tuck lever with one leg out
3x10secs

i lost my waterbottle during my guard duty last week so i've been using a plastic cup for my drinking. And ever since then this song been popping in my head!

if you know this song you get +10 friend points


:D

'why do i have to go to bed?'
"cause the bed won't come to you" "ha ha"

oh man i love sesame street

party plans!

i want to have a theme party soon. who wants to party?

workout log and updates

front squats
5x60
5x70
5x70
5x75

deadlifts
2x80
2x100
2x100
2x120

inverted body rows
3x5
(It's easier to do them on ring rather on the pullup bar)(actually everything is easier on rings ahahha)

swinging dips
4x4

3 parallel bar walks with knees up

tips for you guys(and girls),so far the BEST WAY i've found to get a flat stomach is pullup bars or parallel bars. Hanging knee raises,L sits,skinning the cat.levers are FANTASTIC AS HELL. gymnastics are really damn good.

Work has been fun.
HahAHAHAHhaha sorry i got distracted watching red flowers with my sis. They had a scene where the little boy walked through the snow naked and peed on the stairs.before they had the boy ass wiped by some lady and they use the same towel ahahahaaha.i was talking to her about the kids and what the director must have told them
'ok for this scene we need you to walk naked'
'ok'
'in the snow'
'ok'
'walk down this hall slowly'
'ok'
'after that we need you to poop'

hahahha this is like some movie they would show at yangtze

been playing football near sher's house these 3 weeks.hahah.it's been ok?considering i don't exactly like playing football but it's been fun. 1st and 2nd week what really stood out was the girl with the high fbt shorts and was hella aggressive. hahah eh she's quite aggressive player leh! haha not bad. today was nice,seeing more unfamilar faces,chris also. wah daniel(?) is damn hard to block,fast kid.

i need to sleep soon? i dunno. who needs to be loved? i dunno.

19-5-09

squats
5x70
5x70
3x5x80

Press
5x5x30kg
supersetted 5 pullups

swinging dips
5x3

parallel bar rows
3x3

i just realised that my aunty's dog maxie is looks like it's aged 4 years over 2 months! wth. does that type of dog really look that old?

12-5-09

back squats
5x60kg
5x70kg
5x80kg
5x80kg
5x80kg(2 sec pause at the bottom)

felt very good! very strong squats with no double motion

ferris pullups
6x4

Swinging dips
6x4

front tuck lever with slight extension
3x20secs

oh shit tmr test

The gap that grows between our lives
The gap our parents never had
Stop those thoughts control your mind
Replace the things that you despise
Oh you're old I hear you say
It doesn't mean that I don't care
I don't believe in it anymore
Pathetic acts for a worthless cause

In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine
In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine

But now unforgiven the everlasting
Everlasting

The world is full of refugees
They're just like you and just like me
But as people we have a choice
To end the void with all its force
So don't forget or don't pretend
It's all the same now in the end
It was set in a different life
Destroys my days and haunts my nights?

In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine
In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine

But now unforgiving the everlasting
Everlasting

In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine
In the beginning when we were winning
When our smiles were genuine

Now unforgiving, the everlasting
Everlasting

But now unforgiving, the everlasting
Everlasting

Wa,when he breathes out the word everlasting, i wanna break down and cry. Tremendous.

Front squats
5x60kg
5x75kg
5x70kg
5x70kg

Deadlift
5x75kg
5x80kg
5x90kg
5x100kg

Run and random gymnastic work in the evening.
I wanted to do it all in the morning but no time.sigh.
Today was ok.can't wait for tmr when i start work again.And someone complemented me on my dressing today!!! hee hee. i feel so girly

workout log

Squats
5x60kg
5x60kg
front squats
3x70kg
3x70kg
2x80kg

working sets
2x90kg
2x90kg
290kg

Deadlift
5x80kg
5x90kg
5x90kg
5x90kg

supersetted with shoulder rehab work(YTWL and plate halos)

press
7x30kg
7x30kg
7x30kg
8x30kg

random pullup ab work

I need to run! lol

i hate man utd 10 times

love is a magical listerine

well lets look back on my week.
last sunday:
I ended up watching oasis for $40!!!2 free standing tickets
Haahha the story's quite funny actually.I was there just to buy the tshirts cause the tickets were expensive. Then when i reached the merchanise stand,i saw a man trying to trade in a ticket for the tshirt. The people at the counter refused and he walked off. So off i went to catch him.
I caught up to him and asked if he wanted to buy a tshirt and asked him how much he wanted for a ticket.
"One for one"
I bought the shirt(last one btw) and went back to him. He passed one ticket and suddenly passed me another.
"For your friend" and i was alone lol!
looked down at the ticket and TWO FREE STANDING!!! AWESOME LIKE HELL
And it was seriously a blessing cause although i told myself that i won't watch the show,my heart was actually aching from not being able to watch.lol ridiculous right but true.

OASIS WAS GREAT. BETTER THAN LAST TIME THEY CAME TO SINGAPORE

i asked rebecca down but halfway remembered that my sis wanted to watch oasis orginally but didn't have anyone to go with,so i called her.so there you have haha,sorry rebecca! if saint lola ever come down and i have a ticket i'll give it to you.lol
i was actually quite proud of my sis actually. cause she danced during the concert. I thought she would only clap and cheer but she didn't : )

monday
I drew someone's blood! wtf. so scary it was on the spur of the moment actually. One of the station medic asked me if i wanted to drew and i did.

tuesday
nondescript

weds
see above

thurs
see above. oh wait. i had support singing and nearly lost my voice due to a sudden flu. Haha

friday
i went back to my old church.haha.it's been a very very very long time since i was back there.it still looks as great.the new(i'm using this term loosely as she's been there for 2-3 years? but she came after i left so she's new to me.)pastor gave a sermon about carrying our cross.
THe title was weight of the cross. She asked if we were carrying our cross in our daily lives and if we were afraid of what we had to bear. She told us stories of how people who were dying but did not afraid because they knew where they would be and how one of them prayed for pastor instead of having the pastor praying for her. I liked the sermon,very passionate and well put across.
It's the little things that i remember the most. The babies that keep crying during service and the kids that yak away. The two service halls.The old man who could not walk straight and used two canes.I wonder where is he now.god i miss tmc

sat
will be a pic post cause otherwise everyone will die reading my wall of text

workout log

front squats
4x4x80kg

Deadlift
90x3
100x1
115x1
180x0
couldn't pick up at all.hahah
140x1
woohoo!

2x bodyweight! woohoo!
My friend gave me a tip on my deadlift,keep my toes and legs close tgether. I didn't realise my stance was very wide,even when i squat. One guy actually asked if my balls were very big because my walking style is very wide.wtf

Played around with jerks and pullups

Slide away - and give it all you've got
My today - fell in from the top
I dream of you - and all the things you say
I wonder where you are now?

Hold me down - all the world's asleep
I need you now - you've knocked me off my feet
I dream of you - we talk of growing old
But you said please don't !

Slide in baby - together we'll fly
I've tried praying - and I know just what you're saying to me

Now that you're mine
I'll find a way
Of chasing the sun
Let me be the one that shines with you
In the morning when you don't know what to do
Two of a kind
We'll find a way
To do what we've done

Let me be the one that shines with you
And we can slide away.

Slide away - and give it all you've got
My today - fell in from the top
I dream of you - and all the things you say
I wonder where you are now?

Slide in baby - together we'll fly
I've tried praying - and I know just what you're saying to me

Now that you're mine
I'll find a way
Of chasing the sun
Let me be the one that shines with you
In the morning when you don't know what to do
Two of a kind
We'll find a way
To do what we've done

something i learnt today

not a workout log post! hahah that should be the real name.
anyway i just wanna blog about something special that happened to me this morning.
i was pretty nervous about singing this sunday,firstly i woke up late and took a cab down.Then started practice alittle late.
So we starting practicing and it was ok but my throat kinda screwed up halfway.Felt like i couldn't hit high notes or keep my voice proper.I couldn't remember the flow of a couple of songs and i don't know if you know but i ABSOLUTELY have to everything practiced.
I like things to be spontaneous and free spirit but for support singing,everything must be prefect. or at least well rehearsed.

30 mins before worship i start to have coughing fits until service starts.I really wanted to vomit until i didn't have anything left in myself.Was really scared to sing.Made a short prayer asking god to help me out here,cause i didn't have any confidence in the worship session. I didn't open my eyes for most of the first song.hahah.it's not trying to get into the mood for worship so much as it is scared to look at the crowd.

then we started singing.

the crowd was really dead.haha and it really hard to preform infront of a dead audience even if you know that it's not so much for them as it is for god. third song in and i'm still nervous as hell and i have to hit the high notes. However, as i sang i really felt a weight lifted off myself. I could praise god for everything he had blessed me with and i wasn't scared all of a sudden.

And you know what? God taught me how it's not so much about how prepared you are but how much i need to believe.And it's hard,cause i like to be self reliant. I believe in working hard to go wherever we wanna be.I do believe that.

Haha so what do i believe now?

workout log 04-04-09

front squats
5x5x75kg

wah hard but i completed it MFs! form felt better. I took a break from squatting on weds or thurs. I think the break really help me recover. Or maybe it was the 3 min rest period.

jerks
2x40kg
1x40kg
1x40kg
1x40kg
1x40kg
1x50kg

form was good today! I tried the split jerk foot position and it feels good! stamping the feet and thrusting the arms feels ok

overhead squats
3x30kg
6x20kg
6x30kg
6x30kg
6x30kg

i had some problems earlier with keeping the bar straight and the leaning to the left??? but i think i got it down.

DON'T PLACE YOUR HANDS IN THE SNATCH POSITION,PLACE IT IN A SLIGHTLY WIDER PRESSING MANNER

random pullup work

workout log for today and last sat

today
front squats
6x6x70kg

wah my front is like shit on the last few sets. i need someone to critcise my form. but VERY HAPPY I COMPLETED ALL WOOHOO.Damn tired after that

Press
2x40kg
2x40kg
3x40kg
0x50kg
couldn't even get it off the sticky point
2x40kg

basket holds
40sec
20sec

YEAH i increased my timing for the first attempt!DAMN RIGHT

Last sat
front squat
6x2x70kg

still squatting

deadlift
80kgx5
90kgx3
105kgx5 (touch and go.reset on every rep)
105kgx5 (same)

Plate press (for fun)
15kgx12
15kgx12
15kgx12
15kgx12
15kgx12

jerks
40kgx2
40kgx1
40kgx2
40kgx3
40kgx1

just getting into the groove of things. i'm beginning to learn how to drop my body and straighten my arms ASAP as the weight gets above my head. stamping my feet seems to help with the jerking.
1)drop the body
2)straighten the arms
3)stamp feet,lock torso
4)straighten legs

8 rounds of 8 burpees,10 sec rest each
WAH KNN

hmmm,overall strength doesn't seem to be going up and i really haven't done cardio in a while.this program is more for taking a short break before getting back to 5x5.
sigh.i really wanna do a sport,not just gym all the way

we talked about trannys,transvesties(same thing actually??!?!),thai girls,she-males today at work. My voice reached a new low and i got a compliment on my first day on the job! :D
Oh and nus fass block chicken chop is damn nice.
The indian neighbours are quarrelling damn loudly, i can hear them 3 doors down. 1 interesting thing today i saw an orange indian today.

workout for today
10x6 pullups
constant parallel bar swinging during rest periods

25x3 dips
2 15sec static holds

my head is spinning and my triceps are going to leave me soon.goodnight

i would like to sing this song

Everything is quiet since youre not around
And I live in the numbness now
In the background
I do the things we did before
I walk haight street to the store
And they say wheres that crazy girl
You dont get drunk on red wine and fight no more
I dont see you anymore since the hospital
The plans I make still have you in them
Cause you come swimming into view
And Im hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background
Im in the background
Words they come and memories all repeat
I lift your head while they change the hospital sheets
And I would never lie to you no
I would never lie to you no
I felt you long after we were through, we were through
The plans I make still have you in them
Cause you come swimming into view
And Im hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background
Cause I felt you long after we were through
Well you come swimming into view
And Im hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel to you
I only know because
Im way Im way in the background
Im in the background

workout log 17-3-09

i'm on a russian power program,it's supposed to raise my maximum lift by 5%(!!!) i did this program once but dropped out halfway.hahah.it's no joke. i'm in week 2 which has me doing 80% of my max for 4reps 6 sets.
you can calculate your max squat here!(but i don't think anyone else squats hahah)
http://www.exrx.net/WeightTraining/Weightlifting/RussianSquatProgramGenerator.html

front squats
6x4x70kg

pullups
9,9,9,9,10

neck strengthening,shoulder rehab,

tuck front lever for a total of 60 secs(picture here)(http://www.dragondoor.com/articler/mode3/229/)

well i've got my ns duty. service medic. i'll tell you guys more when i meet you all. But the most importantly is that i've to sleep at 10.30 latest (!!!) and wake up at 5.30(!!!!!!!)MANY INTERESTING PEOPLE. My new phone sms has screwed up so i can't sms back anyone.
Good night all and good luck

NIRVANA ANEURYSM
Uploaded by azertyeah

workout log

Front squats
4x60kgx5

Deadlift
75kgx5
80kgx5
85kgx5
100kgx1
100kgx0
100kgx1
100kgx1
100kgx1
120kgx1
120kgx1

Could have hit 140kg today. But we'll keep it slow :)

Jerks
40kgx2
45kgx2
45kgx2
45kgx2

I usually give myself about 30sec-1min rest time.Trying to build explosiveness noe? hahaha

Pullups
10,10,10,10,10

Not all the same rest times haha :) about 1 min each?

I talked to timo yesterday about how ns has changed the guys.He talked about aimlessness and i know everyone doing it now didn't expect it to change people like it did.Well it did.Maybe the change was gentle but constantly there.Or a big rock that just fell on them

'The game of life is hard to play/i'm gonna lose it anyway'
'bring her back here next to me/cause i need her now/i need your touch so desperately'
my 2 favourite songs in the world.

I just made an event for my shaving of my sideburns :) i wonder who's gonna come hahahaha. I just realised i didn't invite yifei.crap. I like doing silly things,things that don't make sense and try to plan them a few mins beforehand.I didn't do alot of things during my secondary school time except for click my mouse furiously and play the same old games with myself.I'm trying to recoop for all the lost time haha.i think so. I think i'm talking too little at times,when i want to say so much.I wish you all would say what you want to say,then we would be fine? (Should we? What would it bring us?)

But i do wish we all say what we need to say and want to say.
What do you all think of me?

what i learnt at work

• i have the nicest boss in the work
• i learnt to appreciate the shadows and light.I watched the light dance off a ferris wheel and the shadow bob to the tune of kiss from a rose
• i learnt that my chinese really sucks
• i fear hot girls speaking chinese
• i taught myself to play 'suicide is painless' on a 7 key piano

workoutlog plus a wrestling review

squats
60x5
60x5
80x5
80x5
100x5
100x1 (2sec pause)
100x1 (2sec pause)

Shrugs
75x8x3

i'm watching smackdown now.Matt hardy just swerved on his brother jeff and is cutting a promo now. Although he sounds like he has cotton wool in his mouth and speaks like a country hick,OH MY.THIS IS HOW YOU CUT A PROMO AND GET HEAT.Everything he is saying makes sense and is undeniable. Him referring to jeff's popularity with the crowd even though matt was the all american boy makes him a heel.Add the crowds rejection of a solid in ring performer for a spotmonkey, thank you very much +10 crediblity.

the undertaker vs mark henry
a better match than i expected it to be.brawling with psychology!the undertaker just F'ed his finished hahahahahahhha

festus vs big show
festus just screwed up a tornado ddt and nobody cares.necro butcher should use the big show punch as his finisher.

giant khali vs triple h vs koslov
HAHA I LOVE JR.JUST MADE A REFERNCE TO ALEXANDER KARELIN HAHAJAHAHA.khali has tripes in a headclaw haahhah.i remember when they came to singapore,he had that hold on for 5 mins.khali and kolsov are terrible at selling

you people deserve better than this,no matter how pretty they make it sound

i was supposed to write this in my journal but i wanted to listen to music as i wrote this. I'd promised my sister that i'd not go youtube for a week.hahah.suddenly i realise how much i use youtube for music. I'd listen to podcasts and live radio programs but this computer can't play the freaking media player on cue.

(8)what if god was one of us,just a slob like one of us?(8)

i went for a funeral today. I didn't really know the person but i was going to just went to pay my respects to his son.we cabbed down to this void deck where it was being held. There were lots of people there,about 60 easily.I remember it being very white,like something had been bleached constantly. There were people seated in rows,like as if it was sunday morning service. There was a man infront talking. I strained to hear what he was saying but i didn't make out anything. Maybe he was talking about god's salvation,maybe he was encouraging the crowd to keep the faith or he was comforting those that we would see him soon.

i'm tired and i'm angry so don't mind if i sidetrack

the man didn't seem very confident in himself.he hemmed and hawwed abit and shifted his weight around.he never looked at the audience much.but i guess i would be too,if i had to suddenly talk about my friend that had suddenly died.

after that,they sang hymns.I didn't join in cause i didn't know what they were singing.I wish they were singing about him. I've always had this fascination with people singing for the dead.I like the thought of compiling someone's life into a verse and spoken to a beat. The action of letting a song tell the story of someones life maybe makes it's easier for the person having to give the eulogy.hahah.i would like to have a literal swan song.

i'm still angry but am not going to waste my time on the computer anymore.so fuck you computer and internet.

workout log/editted

Squats
60x5
70x5
80x5
90x5
100x3
80x9

Somedays my squats just feel funny.My legs are straightening and my butt is just sticking out in the air.So it's more of a goodmorning. I need to strengthen my lower back.

Pullups
8x6

Jerks
40kgx2
50kgx0
40x1
40x1

You know what? I'm going to study at the singapore sports council.If i'm going to be exercising 3 times a week,i might as well learn something from it

hahahahaha my mother hates new people talking to her.SHE IS SUCH A HERMIT.she's talking about this bsf leader who suddenly approached her on the past.hahahahhahahahhah

song time

i'm supposed to be at sentosa now!!!!
SMU WAIKIKI!!!
DAMMIT

workout log 21-2

Front squats
60kgx5x2
70kgx5x2

NEVER STRETCHED MY WRISTS AGAIN SO DAMN TIGHT

Deadlifts
60kgx5(With ankle weights at the end)
70kgx5
80kgx5
100kgx5 YEAH

The first lift was just fooling around(improvisation chains?hahahaha)not bad tho.
My lower back still feels alittle funny but during the 100kg,it went up like nobodies business lol. I feel my lower back during the <80kg

Jerks
40kgx3
50kgx2

Press
40kgx5
40kgx4
20kgx5(Dumbbells)

Pullups
10(+5kg)
10(+5kg)
4(+5kg)
10(+5kg)

skinning the cat x4x2 hahaha

cause your gods and words

i always hear it as cause your gods and words won't last forever more.

updates

well,i've got my enlistment date.but it doesn't matter to me. it's what im gonna be doing for the next 2 years.it's the start of something new.i am going to do it and i'm going to do it well,no matter what it is.

let's talk about things that matter to me.
i took my first driving lessons one week ago.I had made a appointment to do my basic theory in the morning and my driving lesson in the afternoon. however, i missed my basic theory because i didn't check the time properly and reached there 40 mins late.(I thought i was early)
that really pissed me off because it's a very serious problem of mine.i get prepared and ready and am in the correct mindset THEN i forget to check the basic things,like the date or time.or how to go there.really and totally unacceptable. i need to organise and not do things like this. i saw a girl crying and screaming softly while i was booking my replacement lesson.she'd failed her btt

anyhow,i'd did my lesson for driving and did it pretty well actually!an blessed upside.

sat was not bad. sorry i couldn't join you rebecca! next time i wanna see candy!

it's tough to think when you're listening to nirvana.maybe.maybe not.

my mom fell sick on monday.she got better yesterday.
i trained with yifei today!love it. we exercised with tires today

4-2-2009 workout log

Front squats
5x50kg
5x62kg
5x70kg
5x75kg
1x80kg
1x80kg
1x80kg
1x80kg
1x80kg

My fingering was pretty screwed up today,didn't stretch my wrists alot these past weeks,so stiff wrists=no go front squat. I took a min break between each of the singles to keep my form good.
I have to keep my posture good,back straight,head up and elbows forward

Dynamic rows
5x7x40kg

Press
3x3x40kg
wah this was very screwed up.My right arm keeps going up before my left so it's like / <---
Very bad,need to work on it

Went swimming after that.

Ate lunch and went out at 3 to do some parallel bar stuff. I LOVE GYMNASTICS.hahah.wish i could have crash pads tho.

one of neighbours had ANOTHER funeral at their house.they had one before chinese new year and one more i just saw today.Poor guys.

The mall near my house is closing down and i'm pretty damn sad about it.I'm going on a photographing spree before it gets shut down.Already so many of the shops have been closed :( I wish i had taken pictures of it while it still was opened.haha.It's quite funny,i didn't even realise that the place was going to be shut down this month although i knew that it was going to be turned into a shopping centre. I thought that the place would be untouched,that they were just going to magically convert it into the shopping centre with a wave of the developers magic wand. I've never been to alot of these places before even. Just wandered around them,looking and looking and looking. And haven't found anything. Just visited cafe cartel with timo last night for the first time.jesus

You know what? I'm gonna start inviting people to gardens. and if they don't turn up? i'll just do it myself.

workout cny

deadlift
5x60
5x80
5x90
2x100kg
5x80

grip cannot support 100kg lol

front squats
4x3x80kg

rows
5x12x15kg plates

did this on the back extension machine.1 1/2 mins rest inbetween

dumbbell press
3x10x17.5

arnold press
3x8x17.5

IMANDADIOS AL INFIERNO! aka (GROW THE HELL UP)

when i was your age i didn't have television, i lived!

http://www.truveo.com/Get-A-LifeFull-VersionWilliam-Shatner/id/2305843011717940484

shaft is my love song

back home at 11.30.hello all.i'm working at kallang lesiure park these few days. It's nice to be working again although i'm standing for 11 hours.Beats sitting infront of a computer imo. I wont say what i'm working as but it deals with alot of people who speak chinese.Hahaha. Most of my colleagues speak it quite well so i'm pretty set. I help out with whatever i can.

My colleagues so far have included
-A calefare from 'the little nonya' He bullied jeanette aw in episode 6 and 7
-2 guys waiting to enter ntu
-A former food tech DCP student (my future job prospect HAHA)

One of the ntu guy is a pretty damn good salesman.He worked as a promoter for panasonic before he enlisted 2 years back.PES E as well! So he's good in my books from the start :D Anyway i know if i could speak proper chinese i could be a good promoter as well. lol. not knowing chinese sucks. i was supposed to improve my chinese last year lol.hahah.so su=crewed up.

anyway these 2 weeks have been not bad.Played frisbee and soccer after church on sunday. Hope everyone had fun!Sorry to moses for breaking his frisbee lol.It's all the taxi's fault.He hates frisbees.I met sherlene and rebecca accidentally last sat and yesterday respectively! Seriously big surprises. hahah.funny stories on meeting them.

I'm tired and can't form anything inspiring.Good night all

daily wheat based product for consumption

i was supposed to go for a flyer distribution job at 11 at potong pasir.Unfortunately, i got terribly lost and found myself wandering around the entire Saint Andrews compound.

Got home and painted the study room which took 7hours!! And the room is damn high.So damn high. I played lush 99.5 during this whole 7 hours. So if you've never heard lush at a loud volume,you're missing out a whole bunch.

And i'm working tmr at 10. Need to be sleeping now.

Squats
6x40kg
4x5x62kg

Romanian Deadlift
5x60kg
5x40kg
2x5x70kg

Pullups and dips followed

workout log 12-1-2009

Full squats
5x3x90kg
1x100kg!!!!

FINALLY HIT A 100kg SQUAT!PR BABY!!!
I promised myself that i would hit 100kg last year.But managed to complete it only now. Actually it's not as hard i thought it would be.hmm something has to be said about doing things and completing them.

Dumbell Rows
4x10x15kg

Pullups
12x8

parallel bar and pullup bar work.

20 min 10kg dumbell swings tmr

WORKOUT GOALS FOR THIS YEAR
Press bodyweight
Squat 2x bodyweight 10 reps
Cardio work
Bodyweight conditioning

Surprises from surprising places

I'd never thought i'd find an inspirational quote from youtube commentaryt

u47mm3u47mm3:i'm ashamed to say i've only recently discovered Bruce Springsteen. this song is amazing.
(Reply) Marnoff: The best time to plant an oak tree was twenty years ago. The second best time is now. Welcome to the fanclub, listening to his music is a rewarding experience, and you've only begun to discover.

PAC PAC PAC

There's a war outside and i wonder when i can play my games

GAZA CITY, Gaza Strip - Israeli ground troops and tanks cut swaths through the Gaza Strip early Sunday, bisecting the coastal territory and surrounding its biggest city as the new phase of a devastating offensive against Hamas gained momentum.

Thousands of soldiers in three brigade-size formations pushed into Gaza after nightfall Saturday, beginning a long-awaited ground offensive after a week of intense aerial bombardment. Black smoke billowed over Gaza City at first light and bursts of machine gun fire rang out.

TV footage showed Israeli troops with night-vision goggles and camouflage face paint marching in single file. Artillery barrages preceded their advance, and they moved through fields and orchards following bomb-sniffing dogs ensuring their routes had not been booby-trapped.

The military said troops killed or wounded dozens of militant fighters, but Palestinian medical teams in Gaza, unable to move because of the fighting, could not provide accurate casualty figures.

Hamas said only four fighters had been killed. Gaza health officials said around 20 civilians had also died in airstrikes and shelling. They included a 12-year-old girl, five members of the same family and another eight civilians killed by a tank shell in the northern Gaza town of Beit Lahiya.

500 Palestinians killed
The new deaths brought the toll in the Gaza Strip since Saturday to more than 500. Palestinian and U.N. officials say at least 100 civilians are among the dead.

Army ambulances were seen bringing Israeli wounded to a hospital in the southern Israeli city of Beersheba. The military reported 30 Israeli troops were wounded, two seriously, in the opening hours of the offensive.

In his first public comments since the ground operation was launched, Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Olmert told his Cabinet on Sunday that Israel could not allow its civilians to continue to be targeted by rockets from Gaza.

"This morning I can look every one you in the eyes and say the government did everything before deciding to go ahead with the operation," he said.

A senior military officer said Hamas was well-prepared for the Israeli incursion into Gaza, a densely populated territory of 1.4 million where militants operate and easily hide in the crowded urban landscape. He said the operation was "not a rapid one that would end in hours or a few days."

Still, he said, "We have no intention of staying in the Gaza Strip for the long term." He spoke on condition of anonymity in accordance with army regulations.

Israel says the objective is to restore quiet to Israel's south, not to topple Hamas or reoccupy Gaza.

'Graveyard' for Israeli forces
Hamas threatened to turn Gaza into a "graveyard" for Israeli forces. You entered like rats," Hamas spokesman Ismail Radwan told Israeli soldiers in a statement on Hamas' Al Aqsa TV. "Gaza will be a graveyard for you, God willing."

The ground operation is the second phase in an offensive that began as a weeklong aerial onslaught aimed at halting Hamas rocket fire that has reached deeper and deeper into Israel, threatening major cities and one-eighth of Israel's population.

Rocket fire has persisted, however, and several rockets fell in Israel on Sunday morning, causing no casualties. In much of southern Israel school has been canceled and life has been largely paralyzed.

While the air offensive presented little risk for Israel's army, sending in ground troops is a much more dangerous proposition. Hamas is believed to have some 20,000 gunman who know the dense urban landscape intimately. For months, Israeli leaders had resisted a ground invasion, fearing heavy casualties.

Israel also has called up tens of thousands of reserve soldiers, which defense officials said could enable a far broader ground offensive as the operation's third phase. The troops could also be used in the event Palestinian militants in the West Bank or Hezbollah guerrillas in Lebanon decide to launch attacks. Hezbollah opened a war against Israel in 2006 when it was in the midst of a large operation in Gaza.

The officials spoke on condition of anonymity because the military's preparations are classified.
Rocket fire into Israel has persisted, and more than 30 rockets and mortar shells fell in Israel on Sunday morning, sending Israelis scrambling for bomb shelters. Two Israelis were lightly wounded. In much of southern Israel, school has been canceled and life has been largely paralyzed.

While the air offensive presented little risk for Israel's army, sending in ground troops is a much more dangerous proposition. Hamas is believed to have some 20,000 gunmen and has had time to prepare. Israeli leaders had resisted a ground invasion for months, fearing heavy casualties.
Israel has called up tens of thousands of reserve soldiers, which defense officials said could enable a far broader ground offensive. The troops could also be used in the event Palestinian militants in the West Bank or Hezbollah guerrillas in Lebanon decide to launch attacks, as Hezbollah did in 2006 when Israel was in the midst of a large operation in Gaza.

oh god.and can you believe some of them want to play the numbers game? I heard some minister of Israel talk about 30 rockets for the hundreds that the israels shot at the palestines.450 people wounded and a computer game means more to me than that.

Honestly sometimes, i wonder why even bother. Cause once you start to have a desire for a cause say human rights,then someone comes along and says
'hey don't you care about nature? is'nt nature important too?'

so you say hey why not,it's a good cause.

then
'hey what about foreign workers?'

then you say ok, i hear you, makes more good points,read about it.

'animal rights versus food production for the world'
'burma'
'the occupation of iraq by american forces'
'woman rights'
'racial matters'

then it becomes a chore,cause you realise that jesus christ. There is so much wrong in this world and where the hell can i start.Jesus christ.jesus christ.

i realise it's a long way i've got to go and hey i'm not likely to do anything great.i've got a too short attention span and i'm not dedicated enough to see it through. But it doesn't hurt to try. It doesn't hurt to try to take a stand and try to understand what's going on.

It doesn't hurt to try to make a difference.

In all honesty,i feel the same way about the palestine israel conflict as i did about the burma's monks revolt.Nothing. I feel more concerned about nature than i do about people dying. It makes me feel guilty like now,that i care about the soil and the grass more than kids being killed.But i can't live my life as a guilt trip. I feel for the palestinians children but you can't expect me to be concerned about them all the time. You mean I can't enjoy my slurpee without thinking about the children in africa who doesn't have enough to eat?

god i sound like such a fucking prick.an atas prick.

jesus christ.

It doesn't hurt to try to make a difference.
It doesn't hurt to try to make a difference.
It doesn't hurt
Try to make a difference
Try
Make a difference.

It looks to different when you break down

Micah 6:8
He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

he's never been in love/but he knows just how love feels/he says nevermind

this song makes me feel like i'm in love